once again, I do not know what I mean o_o

I do not know how to begin writing this from anywhere .. but I'm still going to start writing this ..
yeah, okay.. at the first time..
I'll start talking about something, maybe this time I will be a little out of control ..
It started when I was 17 years old. where I'm trying to find me a real identity.
desire to have the couple emerged. yah .. you know the origin, not in the sense of the word pairs that actually, but only special friends of men. It is caused because my friends around me that age already have "it"..

You also must know how it feels to be a 17-year-old child but do not have a boyfriend? yah .. surely everyone has experienced such a thing ...
alone, had no partner, and still live like that-that's all. not really bored anyway? hmm ...

I racked my brain, although I do not know how..
think.. 
think..
and think..
Well, it is indeed destiny outlined by God like this before .. I also do not want to precede God's power lines * cieee

and do not let me do something stupid .. like a crazy person who wrote it all without censorship on the 'diary' which at that time (around the age of ten years) it's still popular ..

hmm .. is still very very not related at all ..
try reading deh .. -___-
okay, from now on, I want to start it all .. better think again before making a decision ..

hmm .. this article may be very difficult to understand. but this article looks a bit more mature .. Haha-__-
okay, bye .. I'll catch a plane to Africa .. and I'll come back as fast as a snail ... do not be sad yes??
see you very fast... *sluuuuuurp